So, i’m home alone tonight. My boyfriend is at work. I”m here with my thoughts….
I worked on the house today, got some things done, and started getting ready for my work day tomorrow. Tomorrow will be a busy hectic day, catching up on paper work, seeing clients, and meetings but biggest of all, it’s my final weigh-in for the Biggest Loser challenge at my work. I’m down a total of 21 pounds since the start of this little adventure and i feel good.
The weigh-in tomorrow morning has been stressing me out. I’m constantly thinking:
I could have gone harder at the gym.
Was that cheat day really worth it?
maybe i should have….
Maybe i could have….
if only i would have…..
After i got all my things ready for work for the morn, i shaved my head, shaved, took a shower and stepped on the scale as i usually do.
I looked at myself in the mirror.
I decided, i’m doing amazing. I’ve decided, i look great. I’ve decided, that no matter what tomorrow, whether i win or lose, whatever number that scale says, whatever place i come in. I know i’m doing good.
I had started this adventure thinking, “I have a ten year reunion coming up, i need to loose weight.” My intentions have changed and my motivation is now for myself.
I want to do this and continue to do this for me. Maybe not as hard as in the beginning, but still to continue this adventure and make it a norm…..
Tomorrow’s weigh-in will be with HR as a witness. I’ve been weighing in usually in my underwear at home and e-mailing my numbers in. I doubt HR will let me strip in the office….. shit.
So tomorrow morning….. bring it on…..
